SO, I was going to write a post called “5 things I learned in the 4 months since being freed from prison…”
But then I thought better of it. And now, instead, I have 5 AWESOME titles for 5 individual blog posts..!
How ingenious is that..?!
And what a title to start with…
Friends on the INSIDE are NOT friends on the OUTSIDE.
Now this doesn’t apply to every single person I met while incarcerated. But it does apply to the majority of the individuals I met while “in the clink.”
What’s saddest is that it’s the ones that you really think are genuine friends.
Good hearted, decent people.
Like .99999999999999% of shit heads in the can are good hearted decent people.
Hey, I like to think I’m part of that .999999999999 percentile. But, then again. I’m sure some would argue that fact.
Some Who may have considered ME a friend on the inside and for whatever reason don’t now on the outside.
I can you from my own observations what I think a big part of all this has to do with…
And that is jealously and envy and greed.
Guys you may have known while incarcerated. Especially, like minded individuals…
Artists ESPECIALLY… Will learn to HATE you on the outside for pursuing the things you may have spent countless days or even YEARS talking about while on the inside. And then actually seeing those things through.
I won’t put names to any of this. Because like I said in a previous post, I try not to EXPOSE too much truth here…
But what I will say is out of 3 artist friends I had while in prison, two are no longer really friends…
One is a SUPER HATER of my efforts to make it.
Well, he did some dirt ball shit.
He fucked this chick I was living with who was my home plan after my release and thinks I didn’t know that he did that.
The bigger point to all that was that I didn’t care that he did that.
But after he did, he stopped talking to me and deleted me from his friends on Facebook.
Kind of funny, honestly.
But the 3rd artist friend from the inside…
Well, he still is a FRIEND..!
So, HOORAY for that..!
And a special shout out to ol’ ANDERSEN here..!
This 3 artist example is just that….
This applies and reaches far beyond these guys and far beyond me, as well.
And hell, for all I know, maybe those two artist friends were never really friends in the first place…
Maybe they never really liked me, and only hung around because I always had some ingenious ideas for the free world.
Maybe they were “idea leeches..”
There are too many variables to try and “exact-la-fy” it.
I can make words up if I want to.
Another variable worth mentioning is this…
Not everyone has the same mindset about life after prison…
Some guys may act like they REALLY WANT to CHANGE.
But in all actuality, they don’t want too.
That’s the magnificent thing about an addict…
They’re masterful level of deception.
Hell, I was an addict, too.
Whose to say I’M NOT THE BIGGEST MASTER OF DECEPTION OF THEM ALL..?
Makes you wonder doesn’t it..?
Let me get back on track here while you sit and question everything I’ve ever written and recorded.
Like I said, not everyone is going to really be too concerned for changing their lives for the utmost better in the free word, and stopping at nothing until they do.
But that’s my mentality.
Others might not be “feeling” that in the free world.
Others might be more concerned for other things.
The point to all this was to blast one individual without naming him. And to address a key fact that I learned in the 4 months since being freed from prison…
People on the inside may very well NOT be who you thought they were on the outside…
Hell, I’ve even said before that no one is really a friend in prison…
There are no real friends behind those walls.
Everyone has an ulterior motive.
Whether it’s as innocent as just to have someone to help pass the time with. Or as sinister as digging for information and trying to get all that you can from an individual…
There is always an ulterior motive.
And that is why MOST ALL friends on the inside ARE NOT friends on the outside.